23.6.07

due to the move, i haven't been posting much lately. I can't promise that it will pick up after the move, but we'll see, won't we. the move is now a week away, and stress levels are needless to say high.

we had to put elektra to sleep this morning. it's the hardest thing i've ever had to do. i'm very sad, and when i'm sad, i'm not exactly eloquent. i woke up this morning remembering the times before jack was born when the beginning of my day consisted of siouxs! getting into the shower after letting the dogs come into our room, and having melne curled up in the crook of my legs and elektra in front of my face. she really was a sweet dog, even if not to everyone. she loved me and siouxs! and even got along pretty well with jack, who in the last few weeks took to pulling her hair something terrible.

thankfully, we found a home for melne. it was hard enough to take one dog in for such a grim task, two would have been impossible.

11.6.07

can't we just put the apartment on wheels?

moving back to my birthplace is exciting.  i can't wait to take jack up to the mountains and watch him play in a stream trying to catch minnows before his feet get too cold.  i want to take siouxs! to all the neighborhoods i used to hang out in and plenty that i never did.  i'm looking forward to becoming a part of my family's lives again.
 
i'm also looking forward to having already moved.  we spent a good portion of the weekend determining what we should take and what we should sell at our yard sale next weekend.  our apartment is filled with boxes, and yet there's still an enormous amount of stuff to box up.  i went through the emotional task of throwing away a lot of old cards and letters from family and ex-girlfriends (of which there was a surprisingly large amount). 
 
simplify, simplify.  i can't possibly use all of the kitchen stuff i have, yet i want more.  if nothing else, i guess that's how i know i'm an american.