siouxs! has pointed out to me that i'm gettign older, a fact of which i was delightfully unaware for far too long. my hearing has been less than great for most of my life, and i'm too afraid to get a hearing aid and hear the loud ass world i've been missing. i long ago resolved to be damned near deaf before i'd get a hearing aid. i mean, my grandfather was always such a source of family comedy, how could i deprive my children and grandchildren of so much entertainment.
no, siouxs! is half deaf too. it wasn't that. we'll just continue to turn our movies up loud as hell and disturbing the neighbors.
what she pointed out to me was the i might need to have my eyes checked.
i can't remember the first time she said as much, but it was only a few weeks ago. the second time was more emphatic, and i can remember it a lot better. last week at stupid baby class, i couldn't read something on the teacher's big flip pad. in my defense, it was written in red marker, but she could read it just fine, so i conceded that i may at least need to go see what the professionals have to say.
now, don't think i have a problem with wearing glasses (and not contacts, unless i have to for an acting role i'm too lazy to audition for). as a matter of fact, i wore glasses (with clear lenses) for a while because i thought they made me look smarter (jackass vanity, i know). i just have a problem with needing glasses. i would feel dependant on something. anything. i hate feeling dependant on anyone or anything, and have since i was a teenager. wearing glasses to me is like constantly having to borrow money from my mom. neither one is desireable.
whatever, i haven't even made the appointment yet. i'll hold out while i can...
fuck bush.
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